For you.

Never ever expressed in person, but today, listen to what my heart has to say.

Today is a special day, for it is my best friend's birthday!
- Angie Neo.

We've been through a total of 6 years of friendship
and she even hated me initially!!
How bad can dat be? Just because im UGLY?!!
*runs amok*
hahahahha.

i will always remember the kind actions of you've done,
the little little things you've done which really gladdens me alot alot.
For example,

buying chocs for me when i felt sad over Maths,

tolerating and comprising with my nasty mood swings
(which have evidently improved over the years of cultivation in the high mountains of Kinabaluku :p)

enjoying our 'Xin Fu' at the ice cream parlour sharing our girly secrets

snapping UGLY & UNGLAM piccas of each other!

her advices and encouragement (FormuLOVE) to lift a sad spirit up all the time!
..to mention just a very few.
:)
if not you'll have to read on for years!


sometimes i wonder why a person like me can deserve such a friend like her.
and because of her, i am willing and was able to gradually shed the previous skin of mine
into a better, much better person.
(now you can imagine how bad i was previously?)
im not bragging at all.
her heart of gold, her innocence,
her kindness, her fragility.


we laughed, cried, quarrelled, screamed, fought, smiled together.
She's a friend i wanna keep forever.

3 words,
i love ya!
The sixth element <3

A day of many returns.

today i went to the library, yes.
alone.
off i picked up a book from the shelf named
'EQ, the basic foundation of Emotional Quotient'

there, i strolled down the path towards self-discovery and
i realise many dimensions of myself which i never knew in the past.
basically, the not-so-good side of YC surfaced before me.

i have to admit i'm a hot-headed person who can be manipulative sometimes..
arghhhh thanks to the fact that im an idealist, utopianist.
who always portray a flawless portrait, as if we're living in the Garden of Eden!?
and in the end? im tend to be the one who gets lets down.
Its inevitable and i'll have to accept that..
we're not perfect.

i tend to speak off my mind rashly,
in an aggressive tone that'll hurt the ones closest to me.
but self-awareness has propelled me to shoulder the personal responsibility for me to become a better, tolerant person.
in the past, like what angie said,
i didnt even think there WAS a problem.
which explains why some people hated me initially! (HOR, zhiwei and angie? =P)
perhaps, that's self-denial which i thought can retain the happiness within me.
afterall, we're human beings who have our blind spots, our Achilles heels we aren't aware about
and we do need a couple of genuine friends who can
peacefully, honestly, point out where exactly you have gone wrong.
the truth can be hurtful at times BUT please don't get too affected..
those are the words you'd seldom hear which may aid you in maturing internally.
I have to constantly remind myself that
'It's not what you say that counts, it's how you say it.'

But still, only YOU, can change yourself and that's called personal responsibility.
If you think you can, you will.
:)

7 IMPORTANT PHRASES (some maybe difficult to say)

I'm wrong.
I'm sorry.
I respect you.
I trust you.
I believe in you.
I need you.
I love you.

Well i guess for most people, the last phrase is seemingly the hardest to mouth.
yet it is one of the elements of our Life!
But sometimes i guess, uncertainities in a relationship cruelly muted the 3 words
the very 3 words we'd yearn to hear from the one we love..
It seems to me that everyone on Earth is on the conquest for love as we constantly search for the right person destined for us.
when will this day come, i wonder.
maybe never.

finally after 25 days, you spoke.

2 Happy To Be True.

2 Happy To Be True.

hello everybardee!
as u all know, A lvls has officially ended for majority le :DD

Happy ONE :

Not long ago, we had this IMPROMPTU primary-school gathering
comprising of Joy, Elaine, OST and me!
seowting is still so joLLy & funny
i think i can even hear her laughter resonating in my brain now
wAHAHAH.
US, despite being 'separated' for ages
didnt seem to drift very far from one another.
this is something rather gladdening :) heee haha
we were literally luffing our heads and hair off in town,
like 4 maddyssss..
chatting about da good ol'days :

ie. The molest of Kirthika
Days of Notorious Joycelyn
And alot alot alot la!

as we were touring Far East Plaza,
miraculously i bumped into Meixin, Yanhong and Yukai!!
the triOs~ :OO
it was too much of a coincidence, isnt it?
to think we can meet at the same time, same place, same frequency.
Fate, i call it =p
well to me, they're really amiable and fun-to-be-with people
that i NEVER regretted befriending in my 2 yrs of college life.
most importantly, its the feeling of sincerity i sense when im with them!
i hope i could know them better!!
and maybe they can even be recruited into my list of forever friends :x
wo xi huan HAO REN :) who doesnt? you tell me.


Happy TWO:

Our occasional Ohana stayover at Maxie's residence.
this time round, da highlights of dis event was basically
Mahjong with sinful chocs, swts, gummies as our stakes
but most importantly,
it was da DRAMATHON- Tang Xin Feng Bao zhi Jia Hao Yue Yuan
dat was praiseworthy!!
my goshhhhh. the show was fantabulous.
it depicted how we human beings, can change for the pursuit of wealth and stuff.
and the price to pay for greed!
oh, we also learnt to speak a little bit of Cantonese
like Mai Yin Wai Lock, Sei Yan Tao.. Kam Yong =X if you understand, that is.
though i dont think it is of any educational value ahahaa.
overall, we really have to admit that it was a FATTENING stayover,
cos we succumbed to those tempting treats!!

Toblerone, Cadbury chocolate, Dove Avericilla, HUGE Muffins, Fruit Plus,
Gummiess, CHEESE-filled pancakes from Mr. Bean, Cheezels, Twisties.. Ohmy.
All- finished during the nights of playing & watching.
*faints in disbelief*

all in all, we were happy and contented souls(or maybe Pigs) at the end of the stayover!
duncha agree?
OHANA WAN SUI~
=D


prom night's approaching
but silence is all i hear.
'my dance partner'
how are you doing?
i miss you.

Liberation!

yayyyyyyyyy
FINALLY, everything ended.
i am freeee to do whatever i like!
one step at a time.
but im feeling very worried for me GP...
which stops me from getting high most of da time.
baaaa.

anyway on a happier note, on da last dae of our exams
somehow somewhat
we had a first-time-ever class outing!!
lets call it S38 Steamboating Session @ Bugis
and the time spent was really brimming with THUNDEROUS laughter and OVERWHELMING JOY! seriously, with all da non-stop juicy gossips and teasings.

wellwell i was rather taken aback when 70% all drank alcohol before lor!
all except Cindia, shangzhi and me.
seeee we so pure de ne hahaha~
dat weiming keep asking me to drink AND i kept rejecting him :)
dowanna get polluted mah =p
still we know hes an obliging guy cos most of da time, he volunteered to serve us all!

AND OH, finally i tasted REAL CRAB MEAT for da 1st time in my 17 coming to 18 years of life *hintttt* lol~~ oky lar i know abit unbelievable BUT its true!

Wave Goodbye to the past
let`s speculate our future everyone!