I have nothing if..

In today's competition, I've lost.
I felt rather disappointed with myself..
But now I think i've gained more than i lost.
The greatest gift you can give to me, is your time.
Your willingness to spend a portion of your life with me.
As we lead our lives separately, how frequently do we get to meet?
Thank you for being there for me. It matters so much, so much to me.
Heart is softer than before. I've learnt to appreciate more. THANKS WOR!

This song, for you (:

提醒幸福。

My little checklist of happy things:

A) Yiying's birthday celebration

together with the Minion cake.

Sissy did most of the wonderful work (:

B) Meimei's curry eggy noodles-

Warms my heart (& stomach) to be able to eat her home-cooked noodles as breakfast. I seem to love everything she cooks leh! Heh heh heh :p Best chef in the world apart from my mummy.

C) Seeing my students learn little by little-

Even after I left the primary school, I feel blissful, to still be able to help them in ways within my means. Those smiles just propel me forward even though I sometimes feel physically tired esp after a long day like this. But so what if it's free and feels tiring? Worth it. My way of giving back to society for all that they have given me. Each time I end, heart's smiling (: 

D) Brighter days with fam & friends- 

Somehow, I feel surges of happiness whenever I'm with the 2 beloved groups of people above. Feelings seem to be stronger and I feel love (: There's also a group of friends whom I now seldom see but somehow always miss. Awaiting 7 Sep! Hehe.

E) Better-balanced emotions

Unexpectedly, was able to handle unexpected situations better than my previous. From negative to positive energy I'm twisting and turning. Till the day i succeed, i won't give in to the monster in me (:

What's your little checklist of happy things? 

p.s. Le sentiment de l'existence. 

Feelings backdated.

11 August 2013:

Before school reopens tmr, I search my heart & recall the various experiences I've had in BRPS. Of all the schools I've been to, this is the ultimate, gruelling challenge. However, the students strengthened my passion & perseverance. And the belief that education is the only key for us to break free from the poverty cycle, be it material or mental. Because of the students, I've cried a couple of times.  But through the trials I've faced back there, they have made me a stronger & tougher person. Yes, I can't change the world but i believe i can make a difference. Now I'm all charged up and ready to learn, for my students. Thank you for the lesson (: I know I have a mission.


14 Aug 2013:
The Haven. My first. Happiness.

You're beautiful.

Last Friday, I volunteered to help in bringing BRPS students to NTPS!!
NTPS was where I did my contract teaching for 1.5 years,
where much of my fondest teaching memories linger.
I miss the people, I miss my students. How could i not go you tell me?! (:

After 3 years, I set foot on the familiar school compound and i saw many familiar faces around.
Heart smiled. But alas, few students recognized me, but i felt it was okay.
One girl even commented that I went for plastic surgery >_<
Tapped on a student and he turned around,
the first reaction he had was "Ehh? Hello." in a calm tone with a surprised look on his face.
Martin was the first student who could actually recognize me. I was so happy.

I have a soft spot for this student particularly. Once during Meet-The-Parents session,
I got to know that his mother has passed away due to cancer. He was only Primary 2.
I teared, for i know there will always be an eternal empty space in his life that will never be filled up.
Has he ever experienced love from his mother?
Those delicious home-cooked dishes, those never-ending nagging,
those hugs & kisses. A mother's list of love goes on forever...

He wanted my number, because he said he lost it 3 years ago.
He didn't have a pen and that his handphone was going flat.
So he thought of an idea. Later he will buy a pen and I will write on his arm.
And so I did. I was so touched by him.

Before I left, managed to snap of photo of us WHEEE!! (:
Though it was blurry, I'm really really happy.
Martin, thanks for remembering me.
I'm so heartened that you've found your passion- Soccer.
Can't wait to see you shine in life next time.



* * *


Last Saturday, went for an audition together with Yy!
Zirui went too, even though he did not take part.
His presence was a moral pillar for the both us.
A tangible one. I didn't feel nervous anymore.

Even though we may not get in,
I'm still grateful that the we went through it.
We'll get more and more confident with experience!

Singing will be always be my passion.
I will always remember last Friday and Saturday.
Thanks Yy and Zhangzirui!! (:

不抱怨的世界。

你是个爱抱怨的人吗？
最长对何事产生抱怨？

抱怨的坏处：
1）变得十分弱势 （无能为力）
2）放弃自我成长 （不愿负责）
3）永远无法变强 （降低能力）
4）产生消极思维 （极度悲观）
5）破坏人际关系 （让人反感）
6）成为悲剧人物 （心想事成）
7）吸引抱怨的人  （效果放大）

“生命像一把盐。该承受多少痛苦，这些盐不多不少。
人总是抱怨，痛苦太多，快乐太少。
可是抱怨时，忽略自己的选择。
你可选择将盐放入装水的杯子。
你可选择将盐放入湖泊。
这些盐在湖泊中稀释，
还会令人难受吗？”


从今天开始，养成正向思考、积极行动的［勤感恩］习惯，让幸福快乐长相左右！(:

杯子或是湖泊，由你自己选择。

To forgive is to be forgiven.

"Rather get hurt in loving, than to have never loved at all." 

懂得原谅别人的人，才是真正懂得爱自己的人。

坦诚相对的心愿，今天终于实现.. (: 

真的好开心，你让我看清自己。

感谢生命中有你 ❤

Mesto.

Ouch, but only for a while.

Sometimes I can't help but feel that our friendship is a joke. And a big one LOL >_<

But then, i manage to confirm one thing, 

it's words of affirmation. Anyone? Haha.

:)

dim. e rit.

原来到最后，我最爱的还是平底鞋。

Indebted to you.

"We each owe someone a debt of gratitude so great, that we scarcely have the means to even estimate the value, let alone repay it." 

I'm willing to spend forever, just doing this, just doing this.